Sab kuch wahi hai, par kuch kami hai....

Valentine Day is here again. I hate it now because it brings all the lost memories. Anyhow, its difficult not to be part of a mushy office talk on such an engaging day when everybody wants to peep into your life just to know if you have any "evening" plans this very day.

However, having been to a very Sanskari trip to Rameshwaram, my mind is very calm these days except for occasional hiccups. I thoroughly enjoyed driving the car for over 2000 kms. It would figure out in the top 3 trips of my life. Hahaha. My Poor manager! Full 1 week gola! The trip became more meaningful when i saw that big smile on mom's face having ably driven so many kilometers without any fatigue and fulfilling her long pending wish. She was sooooo happy. Kabhi kabhi khushi baaki sab ke chehre dekhne se hi mil jaati hai.

But yes, this V day was the first one i spent alone. I did not even take the mandatory bike ride today. Something is missing, a vigour....

Dangal Dangal....!

Sooraj tera chadhta dhalta,
Gardish me karte hain taare ...... Dangal Dangal

The song is great and aptly produces one of the most motivational lyrics in Indian Cinema. That's all there is to it. I just wanted to reproduce the song. 

God is still busy writing the most beautiful love story for me. I hope he ends it soon because i am kind of frustrated now :D Saala, itna time lagta hai yaar tumko? Hadd hai. Charlie chaplin bana ke hi dum loge?

Sonu, i am some how gathering courage since last 26 November to call you. I really felt very very very very happy to know about your Fulbright. All our talks in DVC market just flashed by my eyes in that moment. I almost jumped on my chair at night. Although i should not be too happy, because logically it happened in your life, but somewhere i could see and think and remember that what is unfolding now is what i thought off when your were actually non-confidential about yourself. I always had more faith in you than you had in yourself. Its wonderful that you are actually doing all this !

See you till i gather some more courage to actually be able to call you. I was thinking where would i start on phone. So many things... Perhaps, there is always a first time :)

And you know, Somehow, sooner or later, it will all make sense :)

Happy New Year !

So, its that time of the year when i typically feel very happy and enthusiastic ! It would help though to sum up the last year succinctly. 

What i DID this year

• Fresh from sister's marriage, buzzing with enthusiasm and the charm of working with the topmost luxury car maker of the world, I started 2016 on a very high note.
• My new job at the new office was cool and well received. Its a good place to work apart from some of the mediocre, highly paid people who do not offer any learning opportunity. However, I am proud to work for a company which is Number 16 on Fortune Global 500 list !
• I gifted myself a new home to live. I moved very closer to office and friends. The side-effect: I get up at 7.30 am now compared to 6 am earlier. Hahaha..!
• I made two long car trips in 2016. The first one to Yercaud which was my second outing after 2014 and to Avalabetta and Lepakshi Temple. I had a nice time zooming on highway at very high speeds. Sadly no long bike trips this year😞
• Finally, i flew to Germany which was like a dream come true. I got goosebumps in the same manner as when i sat in the airplane for the very first time. Flush with lot of free corporate Euros, i shopped like hell. For the first time in my life, i shopped for two expensive ladies handbags for the ladies back home who were much charmed to receive them ! Chalo bach gaye :P The only problem remaining now: How to gift that expensive bottle of single malt to dad while avoiding mom's fury 😜 The funny part of the trip happened on the day when while listening to good music at Vapiano and talking to the charming lady at the bar, i lost track of time there and ended gulping many fine craft beer mugs! The bill was 55 euros 😝😜 I roamed the Stuttgart streets at -7 degrees and mostly during evenings after office. Good memories to cherish. 

What i LEARNT this year

• It is wrong to trouble parents for not marrying. They fall ill 😢😢
• By drinking small quantities of finely brewed craft beer, your mouth showers words of wisdom to listeners😜
• Make money your friend so that you avoid being its slave. Earn well and spend lavishly on yourself and others. Automate and save a small part for emergencies...(and again spend it later 😝😝)
• You write the best of poems when exposed to a Godly combination of late night and Scotch Whisky. 
• Phone a forgotten friend. They appreciate it.  
• Never shop at the last moment. You realize your mistake when your credit card bills run upwardly of 50 thousands 😓
• Buy random, unexpected gifts for the women in your life. They go mad over it.
• Lastly, do not pray for your old love to God. He usually does not listen 😝😝

 The Simple PLAN for 2017

• There is no plan. Life starts with and ends in a zilch. All plans fail. The only plan that remains is that of today. Today is the only day.
• When in office, Create like God, Command like a King and Work like a slave.
• When not in office, drink like a fish, eat like a pig and jog like a dog.
• Make one last attempt to the person you love with complete honesty. If it fails, then get married to the one with the best b**bs  😍😉

Ciao !

GEETANJALI

Ek kitaab hai aur ek hai insaan,
Ek itihaas hai aur ek hai vartamaan,
Nahi bhulaaya ek ko samay ne,
Aur doosri ne khud ko hi bhula diya meri zindagi me,

Ke khud ko dubaa doon sharaab me ae khuda,
Kuch koft hai jo jaati nahi seene se,
Kehne ko hai wo.. ya shayad nahi hai,
Ya shayad yaadein hai, ya meri dabi khwaahish hai...

Mile wo to ye sawaal poochna to banta hai,

Ke khush to ho na tum kuch ban jaane ke baad?
Ke khush to ho na tum apna mukaam paane ke baad?
Ke khush to ho na tum mujhe jhukaane ke baad?
Ke khush to ho na tum mere toot jaane ke baad ?

Paa liya zindagi se tumne bahut kuch,
Aur zindagi se hame bhi koi shikayat nahi, 
Tum ab bhi khwaahish to meri,
Kuch khwaahishein niklengi Zinda rehte,
Aur kuch mere marne ke baad...

Happy Friendship Day

Like most of the things in modern times, friendship too stands commercialized. However, this feeling has caught on me only recently. You have to "treat" people apparently for nothing, you have to give a fake appearance in their zabardasti ki parties, you also have to "help" them in times of their need, and all this for those who will wish you your birthday through whatsapp ! 

I am reminded of the old times, some years ago. I too had a friend. Self-less, unassuming, always in party mood, unconventionally beautiful and in love with her work whatever it was. As i find myself sitting on my beloved chair, listening to light music instrumentals and holding a peg of Vat 69 in my hands, I surely miss her today. 

And why? Because the love is gone, the friendship is gone and the fun too is gone from my life. In case she is reading this, cheers to happy friendship day. The pleasure, always, was all mine. 

Goals become clear but.....when you find the right path

Long break from blog spot indeed. I am back after almost a year ! 

Today, i was anonymously reading one of my favorite blogs written by one of the better humans i had met in life and spent quality time with.

Sometimes, the goals in life are not so clear, sometimes not at all clear! Their is no point for a batsman to score a century if he is not told how many more runs are required for his team to win. Similarly, having great talent but no clear goals is a waste of talent. 

When i met Jerry long ago, she did not have a clear goal, nor was aware about her talent. I distinctly remember she used to think studying in DU is akin to studying at Harvard. However, that was all that was to it. I remember how much Jerry hated the Bengal land (thanks to the innumerable audio tapes i recorded during our conversations which i hear in my spare time). But yes, i do realized that was because Jerry was immature at that time, not fully realizing her potential and not fully able to utilize the brand that is IIT. I hope Jerry can look back and tell if that is still the case. Talent is a waste if you do not have the correct path to use that talent. I am sure IIT is providing all the right path to her.

People who are good and nice and all is not a bad thing. In today's times, nice people are a rarity. So engrossed is my generation in their pseudo & shallow ubercool materialistic lifestyle, that you can expect nicety from only a handful. I am just happy that i played a part through which this talent found the right path and is going places right now. For an average, not so intelligent and unimpressive mortal human, this small role in Jerry's life means a world to him.

I am happy being unintelligent, unimpressive and unselfish. I can sleep peacefully without any expectations from anyone :)

There goes the smoke...

"Be the change you want to see"

Mahatma Gandhi spoke this line decades ago. I could not help but to reiterate this quote today. My pride rests in successfully resisting the advances of my friends who tried all sorts of tricks to lure me into smoking again. However, it was my steadfast resolve that broke their hopes and slowly all of them fell in line. Now, i am more of a change agent and they wish that they could have the same resolve. They want to be like me. It's not easy to leave one vice. It tested my patience daily but my promise to myself sailed my through. It also increased my respect in my own eyes because it is one of the few things i have done perfectly in life without making any major mistakes. I now relish telling everyone that i don't smoke and i convey that proudly with my head held high.

I slowly started hating smokers and now very well understand what it means to be a passive smoker. My online apologies to those unknown souls whose lives were shortened because of my erstwhile smoking habits. Some of friendships have been a little affected but smoking is not the end of the world. I made many more non smoking friends. 

Today, I complete two successful years of quitting smoking. By this way, i was able to test my will power. By this way, i tested my resolve. By this way, i kept a promise i made to myself. Nothing is impossible for sure and i am feeling very happy.