Back to Square one....

Life has been strange for me so far. Past few days have been hectic. I was preparing for good but somehow everything has turned out to be bad, maybe worse. But morning follows darkness. So i am not too much worried. Any way i never lose faith in my abilities and may be of others too.

I easily get along with lot of people. They have taught me various things. But may be its time to understand now that promises are meant to be broken. That some words just have no meaning. They are spoken just for the sake of it!

There are instances when something unexpected happens, something terribly goes wrong, something which you can't fix just because it's not in your hands. Sometimes, i wonder whether there is any other way out to live in this world beyond 'tit-for-tat' theory. But a small corner of my heart says i should remain what i am, no matter how many times i fall. I should stay straight and take on everything head-on. Its hard but not impossible, for nature and character is what makes you a man and a true human being. No matter how much money Dhirubhai Ambani earned, he is still small....very small in front of a comparatively modest Dr. APJ Abdul Kalam when it comes to gain respect. I want to be somebody like him.

No matter how many movies SRK acts in, people still associate Aamir Khan with best quality and innovative movies with a social message. These instances just teach us that we should live life on our own but legitimate terms. You can't run around whole life pleasing undeserving people and acting good. Those who deserve us better, will get the best of us no matter how. Those who don't deserve us will anyhow lose us. Those who deserve us will understand us. Those who don't, they won't. Its just a game and we all have to play it without any choice.

Till date i have enjoyed life the way i wanted it to be. When i look back, i want to remembered as somebody who can be blindly trusted, who is friendly yet command respect, who is serious yet truthful, who will go out of the way to help and will never express that. Feeling very bad today but still I am proud to possess a little bit of all these qualities and want to proceed in the chosen direction. As somebody said, "if you don't know where to go, it doesn't matter which road you take"...